Another door opened.

So the last post I was talking about myself being lost in my own life which I can foresee myself working in the clinic (either open up new clinic or profit sharing with others, but still working in the clinic), work till my last breath in the clinic, I felt lost.


Not that I hate my job, I love to have this knowledge and skill, but I want to see other places, I want to explore new destinations, there's so much more than just staying in 1 place remain stagnant. I'm not settled down. Not yet. For my twentieth, before I have commitments, let me try to travel, work and live at other countries. To live a life that has no regrets. If I really can't adapt it well, then I will get my ass back to Malaysia and start planing what my settled down life should be like.

So, I have been thinking of applying newzealand working holiday. This came across my mind when I first graduated. Postponed it because I'm afraid I may have slowly forgot the knowledge, bit by bit, lost the self confidence.


And surprisingly I got it. 1 of the 1150 lucky Malaysians.

You will never believe how amazingly I can get the pass. Because I renewed my passport on the same day, and a friend helped me edit the form online because I couldn't log in to the website anymore, and he helped me pay first. Amazing. I got it at 10.10am, and I saw people post the scheme was closed at 10.20am like that.

To those who tried applying knows how lucky I am.


So I will have my  working holiday  in newzealand. Hopefully can find a vet technician job to see how's western country practice like. And to see if I wanna go for MRCVS.


Malaysia, I love and hate you. This is the love-hate relationship.

The purpose of life

the title sounds very educating or motivating, as in I want to share with you what's the purpose of life.

But nope.


I wish you can share with me, what's the purpose of life. Because I'm looking for it.



With my profession, with my result, lots of people think that I will be a vet till I died. Not that I hate my job, I love my job. I love to be with dogs n cats.


But I always wonder, is it the only thing that I can do?


Being in the clinic 6 days a week, occasionally sunday duties.. Know nothing but only things happen in the clinic. Dealing with lives...

I'm not complaining... It's a holy job ( yet a sick job as well, ps you can read my recent fb status to know the story), from time to time, I received gifts and cards from clients as a token of appreciation, , helping others at the same time, make a living out of it.

But then, to settle down.....  I feel I have a lot of things that have not done yet. That I should have accomplished something, the check list or the play list.



The world is so big out there... Shouldn't I explore it before really settle down?


Then I got confused... If being a clinician vet is really what I want, why would I have doubts on my path.



I'm so jealous of those who knows what they want in life, What's their goals, what's their purpose on doing everything that they did.. Because I'm confused now..


Should I take a step back?