Most scary nightmare

It's 4am in the morning. Woke up crying because I had a nightmare. It's my first time that I woke up crying because that nightmare is so terrifying.

In this nightmare there was dog in emergency and in need of dripping. And no one was willing to help me to restrain so that I could get the vein. And all of them were making jokes and laughing. The owner was crying at the other room. And there was a line queuing waiting for consultation. Another hectic day.

I asked them to be serious and don't make any more fun out of it, they burst into hilarious laughing.


I felt so helpless.

Then my eldest brother in law walked in, and only he took me seriously and asked me, "come, how can I help u"

Then I woke up because I was crying so hard that I needed to breath.



It feel so fucking real, the nightmare.

I hope it would never happen. Please.
Maybe I am just stressed at work.
But dear god, please do not make this nightmare real. The worst nightmare ever.

The good old days

I missed the good old days, when we can work our asses off and laugh our lungs out together. Now everyone has gone to different place and I don't think we can find the same laughters back.

I miss you.

Another day

It's not healthy to be emotionally attached to patients and I know that this is not professional.

Maybe I'm still young in this field so slowly I'm staring to experience my favourite fury patients to reach the time when they cross the rainbow bridge.

And I have this very bad trait which I have all my feelings written on my face. At one point, I don't know what to say to the owners or how to console their broken heart because I could feel the heartache as well. One of the owner later texted me and said she received my condolences through the looking of my eyes. And she thanked me. And there's another case, I feel that the owner console me and told me that her pets love me too. I broke down crying so bad since it means a lot to me.

But today is the worst.

I need to put her down. The rescuer asked me last night if wanna put her to sleep when she has a confirmed diagnosis of brain tumor. I told the owner my answer would be biased... They decided to bring her back to monitor

But today she started seizure. She was in pain. I know I couldn't hold her any longer. She was suffering. So we come into a conclusion that I need to put her to sleep.

But you know what.. I was shivering. I was shivering to inject this pink solution into her vein. And I cried injecting it. But I know this is the right thing to do.

May you rest in peace, no more suffering no more pain.. Only loved.

What did I do when I first arrived. New Zealand working holiday #2

When I first arrived, I was a lucky girl, because I have my secondary friend there to pick me up! Ang See Yin, please give a round of applause! She deserved it! hahaha. Yin and I are both talkative, we have endless topics, and almost every topic didn't get to finish lolwtf, it is true, seriously *serious face* 

 In the return of favor, I would like to post

a picture 

which she looks better than me. 

Hahahaha.

Things that need to do. 

1. A sim card

You need local NZ phone numbers to do everything. And it's fast. At first I use sparks, $19 combo which you can have 1GB sparks wifi everyday. 500MB a month, 1Gb facebook data a month,  if you have friends who is studying in New Zealand, apply the student extra benefit, can get another 500MB.  Unlike in Malaysia, data is cheap but in New Zealand, it's precious. T^T 

they have renewed their combo packages.. Check sparks out. 

P.s: After I got the job, I change to Skinny Direct, I want my freedom back which costs me $30 a month, 3GB and I think that's kinda a deal to me. 

      2. A Bank account. 

• I use ANZ and only ANZ. Easy, fast efficient. Get a letter from the place you stay to prove that you are staying there. 
• Your E-working holiday Visa print out 
• A booking with them will make everything faster and easier. And as for me, Queenstown is full till next month wtf, So I went further north to Cromwell to get it done. Very fast. 
• Choose EFTPOS or VISA, Visa you need to pay $10 but you can use your card to buy things online which later on you'll find it very useful. 

       3. IRD number. 

A bank statement and your passport. Got it done in post office. Wait for the IRD numbers. That's it. 

So, while waiting...... What did I do? 

 Eat. Play. Look for jobs.

 My elder sister's friend in her high school, CS and that's his wife. 

Sweet 

 A up close picture of him. LOL. 

They actually accompany me to find jobs, all the way to Alexandra. 

Summer is Cherries season, I wanna work in Cherry orchard, where I can eat like no one else's business. 

Of course la, I bought them simple lunch and as well as I paid for the petrol money. 

They didn't request, but I think it's a must.

I'm still very grateful of them. 

even though they have nothing to do lol wtf and going out with me is definitely more fun wtf. 

 random cat

 I found job! but it was rather late to start. It's in Dunstan Hill. The supervisor/manager was really kind, she told me to inform her earlier if I'd found other jobs. OOPS, and I did. 

 有感觉吗？ 有吗有吗？ 

CS and his wife, ah sou I called her, cooked me this... I feel loved. Hahahaha. 

An escape to New Zealand, Working Holiday. My first step here, Queenstown.

Unsurprisingly, it took me ages to update about my excuse to escape from reality  working holiday.
Because I'm currently working exchange accomodation here in Kaikuora, so I have plenty of times.

I arrived at 23rd November 2016 and December is the first month of Summer. YES!! I am very afraid that I may not be able to cope with the cold, so, summer is good for me.

The next time of me having authentic malaysian breakfast in a kopitiam will be at least half year later.

I only brought 1 backpack, 1 small size luggage, and 1 Ukulele with me.

Bid goodbye with my loves.

I took Air British and Qantas airline from Singapore to Queenstown, transit in Australia.

Never get sick of it..

The airplane meals if you're interested in it. 

After 2 days of travelling, I arrived in Queenstown and amazed with its beauty. Also the beauty which pick me up from airport! xoxo. Thanks See Yin. 

Queenstown in Summer, Seriously? 

I think I had experience one of the weirdest summer this year. 

How to not fall in love with it? 

One more please. 

Where did I stay?

Xbase backpacker hostel. It's at the center of Queenstown.
Last time I booked it with NakedSleep website, which is cheaper but they still give you the exact the same service. But I checked it now, Xbase Queenstown is not in the list anymore.

The accomodation price fluctuate with the demands, usually in summer, the price will be higher.

P.s: Xbase hostel is a party hostel, there is a pub just down there on the ground floor. So if you're very sensitive to noise, better don't stay there.