Day of sorrow

It was the day I have to leave my home, my sweet lovely home again. To pursue my dream. *Ok, It's a super late post haha. one week after The Day only I posted it up.*

1030am bus, Early morning Monkey brought us to yum cha.

Literally yum cha. So many tea. I drink quite a lot tea that day which I regret later! Soooo regret!! Forgot the fact that it has some diuretics effect.. And in the middle of the trip back to KL, I have to hold my pee so hard because I felt so paiseh keep asking driver tp stop by so that I can ease myself.
To top it off, I was the ONLY one to toilet. Can you imagine all the passengers look at me when I back to my seat. I can listen their mind saying.. *Aiyo, this young lady laa... makes us wait for her.. *
T____________T  Noooooomuuuuaaa Tea anymore.

Set this reminder to myself since I have data plan now. I've been dreaming of having it. Some more my dear sister yin yin is so nice and kind to give her lovely sister her used iphone. =D Big kiss to her.
I think it's because I am cute and I'm a good sister. hahahaha. Ok, I take all there exaggerated self compliment back, too fake and too unreal. haha

I don't want to be a slave of his.
Don't want to end up be a slave of *Likes*

In case you miss my face. *it's not even full face of mine. haha. like this only sexy mah, ni zhi bu zhi dao.. *
Taken while I heading back to Kl. In the bus, holding my pee. Lol.
the knitted top is a souvenir and gift from ong koko, my brother.

Dull and Depressing moment for Gossip Queen

I know it.. since the day I know how to talk and communicate.
Started learning this since I was a kid.
A world where rumours and gossip news as the desserts of  a meal.

I take responsibility of what I talked and what I said.
I knew the consequences of spreading it.
sometime it does not bother anyone.
sometime it's like a spark in the woods.

You are not gonna tell anyone about this! 

The gossip will always be centred around the annoying people.
occasionally it involve the gang, where everyone is close to each other
but hold the secret to herself/himself
the lucky one who gain trust or good in digging source
would eventually get to know the secret.

And this is when the dull and depress moment starts
when the lucky one accidentally mention it to other members of gang due to slip of tongue.

Everyone wants to know secret.

Everyone wants to know each other better.

There is no harm in it unlike the gossip and rumours.
because it's something about the gang.



Sorry. I slipped it out after keeping it so long.

I take responsibility of it. And here comes the fire which had put out.
I am so glad that I was forgiven. I'm sorry for causing you trouble. *As a queen, I do apologise also. sometime.*


But I only taste the bitter feeling of it

when the person I trusted so much does not trust that much on me.

accusing me for something I didn't said is what really matter to me.
accusing by someone who is special to you.


That's when the gossip queen got dull and depressed.

accused for something didn't do.


Gossip Queen can not ask for trust. Because that is how the Gossip Queen got the name of it.
And the rule is still on.
Only dead person can keep a secret wtf.

Can You?

The moment a secret was told, it's not a secret anymore.


But to be a Gossip Queen with high moral value *gossip people have moral values? seriously?!*
Yeah, I wanna tell you this,
I'm a Gossip Queen with HIGH MORAL VALUE! 

Paiseh nia~
But I have my own principle! 

2 factors to consider:

1. who to spread to : telling it to different gang of people would be a good idea. But again, does that count as gossip if spread it to someone they don't even know?! haha, I count that as yes. Normally I would not mention about the name. Just said as a random person.  
2. When to spread:  The longer you hold the so-called-secret, the higher moral value you have *urm ya boh?!  * haha. It makes you feel better la. And sometime, you keep it to yourself, and eventually you forgot about it until you were told by others, then only you recall, "yeah, someone told me before"  Not bad right. 

However, all these only apply to gossip about person that is not annoying/ not the targeted person. *does that count as gossip wey?!* 

Reason of gossip gets people closer, because it is not about us we are talking about, it's about others that would not care so much by us. 

True? Depend how you see it.  

Long live in memory

You know you are not just gone with your heart stop beating.

Forgive us opt to do this, but it would be the best for you rather see you suffer.

I'm not your owner, you are not my pet. But you've been living in my life since I'm in college. Can trace the evidence of you living with us and your beloved owner still not yet want to remove all that traces that would remind her that you were living with her. I wish I could tell her that time,

even without all that things, we would never forget of you, because you live in our memory that would last till we step in grave.

 Tears running down and ruin the chance of me to tell her this and cheer her up. Sorry.

The house is more quiet without you, less cheerful without you. Time will heal the wound and form the scar in heart but doesn't mean that we would forget you. We would be stronger without you be with us, but we know you are watching us from the heaven. (i'm glad that you are not my pet because if you are, you would be Buddhist and have to enter the cycle again, be animal or human, *if you are good enough or lucky enough---be dewa* that you are destined to be, and suffer again, life is suffering)


Thank you, Smokey, for every cheers, every grudge (especially during exam time that we all suffer in study while you sit on our notes or sleep or eat or play), every small little things in memory that would make us smile (such as falling from the bed *stupid cat*). And thank you, God, bring her to us, and have her with you now.

Bless us, to be vets with knowledge and empathy.

and to the owner if you happen to see this post, we know Smokey is irreplaceable, but we are here for you. You did a great job as a owner. Life is precious because it has an end that we couldn't avoid. And for years, she's been living great with all the care from you and us.
To cheer you up, I give you this!

*what just happened?*
*who are you?*

Haha. Hope it can make you laugh.

Long live Smokey.
and rest in peace.

With love,
Chia Lin