The bitterest lesson of life

This friday the vet student, DVM 2 is organizing a faculty night, with the theme of Vintage. 

Every year, faculty night will highlight on DVM 5 as it is considered as the dinner celebrating us leaving the faculty soon, and lecturers will be like "get out of this faculty, I don't wanna see your face anymore" lol wtfish. This is true, because, if they see us again next semester, it means we failed the comprehensive exam, and take another 1 year, to study and retake the exam. =C As much as the lecturers wish us leave them alone, hahahaha, I hope so too. *Fingers cross* 

So, DVM 2 are asking for the video of DVM 5. thus, I have to go through all the old pictures. 

The more I see, the sadder I am.

And this is the conclusion I get... 

How crazy we were, how much fun we had and lead to how sentimental the pictures are now. 

May be I should feel satisfied with the memory of our great old days together, yet why my heart aches when I recall of it. 

Maybe I should think that it's not us who change, it's our priorities. =S

They said, friends don't leave, we just know that who our true friends are. 

I'm living in a world that even best friends can grow apart. 

I miss you. and it hurts. 

I shall call it a "Old woman syndrome" 

to the other friends who I unintentionally hurt before (if I had), you have my most sincere apologies, I had no idea, it hurts you that bad. 

Sekian, terima kasih. 

Lesson learnt

5th May is our country, Malaysia, general election day. 

To be frank, I love Malaysia even though I know, compare to other civilised country, it's not a fair place to live. Malaysian, I'm talking about. Not chinese, not Indian, not Malay. 

I still love Malaysia.  

Even it has people plays the most stupid, dirtiest trick in order to win the election. (BN, or PR, whatever, I'm disappointed by this shit happened) 

I remember, Pengajian Am (learnt in form 6) taught me that Suruhanjaya Pilihan Raya is under Yang di-Pertuan Agong. It should be clean and without siding to any party. Why would it allow this dirty trick on stage? 

A lot things that I learnt actually contradict to what I saw. 

I'm supposed to study for Wednesday test but it distracts me too much. So disheartening. 

=( 

Repost a status from my malay facebook friend. and it makes me feel so much better. 

And never think that Allah is unaware of what the wrongdoers do. He only delays them for a Day when eyes will stare [in horror]. Al-Quran, [14:42]

I delete my twitter account. Decided not to have so many social account, especially the account that lost its true purpose. 

With my twitter account deleted, I hope I would be active in blogging again. 

Because it is my blog. 

I speaks here. 

With this, I should start studying again. 

Cheers, for a better self and better nation. 

Bad news

Long time didn't update. Have been busy of nothing actually. CNY celebration, sem starts, melaka trip, horse endurance. 

Is it a punishment of me not using time wisely, or having too much sweet time, so God sent a bomb to me, make myself busier and focus on things I should spend my time on. Haih. 

Here come the bad news, 

Receive of an email from Glasgow saying can't fit all 3 of us in 2 weeks. Asking us try to change our practical time. 

T^T

A friend of mine offered me try to have small animal practical in the same uni with her. But I can't be so bad, ditch my friends off at this critical time right. Have to discuss with Moo Moo and Choy Yean, to see what's the best option for us. T^T

But I wanna go Europe so badly, during my study time, when I'm still a student (so that I can pretend myself as Harry Potter while in the train in Europe hahaha. I'm surprised that not only me had this thought. hahaha) , while I'm still naive hahahaha. 

Anyway, see how things go. 

God would choose the best for me, I believe.

 

Stupidity

If there is an award for stupidity, I would be not just "honour" to accept this award!

I was so stupid today, I guess no one is more stupid then what I just did. 

My watch has been out for battery for sometimes, *If you saw me still wearing a white watch, actually the watch is not working. hahaha. I just used to wearing a watch, so I put it on without realise the fact that it's broke and it needs a battery and it doesn't help my miserable life at all by having it on my wrist. I'm just too used to it.* 

So, today around 2 15pm, I finally gam buan move my ass out of my room to sri serdang the ONLY watch shop that I know to change battery. 

230pm. When I almost reach there, the picture of my watch laying on my tidy table ok, it's not tidy at all, on my can't be more messy table flashed across my mind. I forgot to bring my watch! STUPID#1

Oh shit! But I almost there! In a dilemma wanna make a Uturn or check whether the shop is open not. I made up my mind, reached there and asked can I just buy a battery back and fix it myself, would it be difficult. Of course not. I know the answer but I still ask. Sometime I can be really stupid in handling small tinny chores in my life. So, that's STUPID#2 

The shop closed at 3. Now I have 30 minutes to get back to college and take my watch and rush back to the shop. 

I need the watch because of surgery rotation, HOW CAN I COUNT RESPIRATORY RATE, HEART RATE WITHOUT A WATCH? So, it's kinda emergency indeed. And I should have fix it earlier when I have plenty of time. STUPID#3 

235pm. On the way rushing back to college. Guess what! I chosed a route that is super jammed in this week because of MAHA!! *If you are staying around serdang, putrajaya, you should know what is MAHA, It's a Malaysia leading agricultural show with a lot, A LOT of free food testing, cheap stuff.*  I choose the one pass by MARDI. haih. STUPID #4 

End up jammed there for 15 minutes. 

3pm  Finally reach college! take my watch and rush back to the shop. 

310pm  Reach the shop and the man left the shop. Good. 

But, I'm still a lucky girl. Someone in the shop *which I guess is the owner of the shoplot, the watch shop just occupies a small part of it.* gave me his handphone number and I managed to get him back and fix it. 

Pheww.. spent RM10 for a battery which I can actually buy a new cheap watch, and RM5 for the fuel ?? Worth? definitely not. T__________T Y I so stupid today. 

4 Stupid acts in one day and 1 lucky moment.

Dear Jealousy

It has been bothering me for a while that I have no idea why would people do something like that to me.

And that person should apologize to me and MY PARENTS! 

A senior of mine posted this as her facebook status and I think it's really good. 

Do not simply spread news that you don't know the head and tail of the true story. Have a courtesy to ask, before you spread it. Be a bit responsible.

Guess what, I still don't know who is him or her because none of them have the gut to admit or maybe all of them didn't do it hahaha.

But at the end I find out something from someone who knows things like no other people would know this matter more than him or her, then only I find out...

It's Jealousy!

Oh my god!

I was really happy instead of upset. Because no one would jealous of loser. I must be good at something or maybe simply just because I'm too lucky that he or she not happy with it.

But recall everything that I have, I was really quite lucky.

1. With my gangster temperament, I have lots of friends that love me. Friends from penang and friends in DVM. But things happened, and I know, who are being sincerely nice to me, and who didn't. 
2. I don't study like no day and night, but my result is not bad. *not to say very good, but I'm satisfied with what I have. practice makes perfect. every wrong answer would help you remember more! And for the avian med test that just few days ago, I would never forget ASPERGILLOSIS! Shit me for not being able to recall at that critical moment!! But for my whole life, or if I end up as an Avian Vet, when I saw the yellow foci in brain, lungs of chicken, aspergillosis should in my Differential Diagnosis! Then I would curse the infected chicken: shit you chicken, you are the one makes me lost marks in Avian Med!*    
3. I  have family that always support me. and sponsor me a lot of things also. Thank you yinyin, yy, dad and mum. Last but not least, my koko. 
4. I have Monkey, that always wait for me who is always busy with a lot things, exams, study, class, wards, rotation, hangouts. 
5. I earn bit money from my hobby. Even though with little or no followers. Haha. This one you can continue making jokes of me or laugh at me. But it's my hobby and my way to express myself. Last time I wrote diary, that's why I capable to write blog. It's like my own diary. 

But let me tell you, Mr/Ms Jealousy, I deserve all this! Because I have been good to everyone and God bless me with all these. 

And for the award winning that you mention, Please, I deserve that as well. 

Don't underestimate STPM scorer, I know what's the way of study. All I need is the determination. If I continue study like how I study during Form 6, I believe I can do so much better than now. But I guess, if you have the determination, you can score also. So, why not taking care of your own life? 

Instead of jealous of how great other people's live are, why not you start working on your own life? Be more concern of your own life! 

But I still thank you for seeing me with microscopic vision/eyes, because I know, I can only move forward to show you that you are so wrong and maybe I'll be a role model of yours at the end. Haha. 

But no kidding, all my best friends are those who dislike me at first. 

Maybe at the end we become good friends. Who knows. 

But, first, please, recall everything in your life. Don't be so pathetic. 

God bless you.

When Tiger comes late.

The Tiger here is not referring to

But referring to 

Yes, Tiger Airways Airline. 

It was my first time to Singapore, So I'm super super excited and I'm going to meet my siblings there! It's once in a year. I was really anticipated to meet them, my brother da pui quan koko hahahaha, wang yin yin, wang yew yew~~~~~ and their partners. Just like most of the penang youngster nowadays, they work in Singapore which give better salary and a safety environment. MALAYSIA, Y U NOT SAFE! MALAYSIA, Y SALARY SO LOW! 

Haih. So, we have been living in different country but thanks God, we still speak in the same language. 

It was first planned by my lovely eldest sister whom age shall not be revealed here. She bought the tickets for us, ME, MUM, DAD. 

The flight was at 1315, we reached penang airport at 1115, you know chinese kiasu kiasi haha. We reached SUPER early and got us and my luggage checked in. Then we enter the waiting area because dad said there are shops inside. End up only a few, not sure because of renovation or memang like that. 

So, we sit and wait, at 1145. T_____T

Picture of my mum and dad waiting. 

My mum is pretty, isn't she? She is the prettiest mum in the world and I love her so much. She is so caring and supportive. I really think she would never get old because she wouldn't give up learning at any stage of age. 活到老，学到老。 我只是有点慢。。。。haha, that's what she always says. Salute! 

My handsome dad with his big tummy. A lot people says I have pretty nose, I got that from my dad, and his nose is even prettier than mine. Original is better than pirated version. haih..

Picture of me camho, because no one wanna take photo of me.. T______T 

at 1315, the plane arrived. I was happy with the punctuality. Last time I took Air Asia, and waited for more than half an hour. 

Not forger to take picture in plane. BIG HEADs!

Super big pimple on my cheek cover with cream. My mum's skin not bad ya. 

Then the air stewards made an announcement, due to some mechanical problem and checking, we have to wait for 10 to 20 minutes. We were asked not to leave the seat. 

10 minutes later, we were asked to leave the plane!!!!!!!! 

cute girl spotted with cute owl bag and pink hello kitty luggage. Later I found out that the owl bag was stuffed with her own pillow. AAAAWWWWWW... 

Guess what. There was a nail punctured the tyre and even though there is no leakage in pressure, but the Captain decide not to depart with risk. 

It was announced after 1 hour of waiting. 

So a lot of them making complaints and crowd giving pressure on the agent. 

It was fun to see all kind of ways of complaint. 

But it's not fun at all when the flight from 1pm delay to 3pm and 5pm and at the end you know that you HAVE TO WAIT FOR 8 HOURS for the next flight. A lot of explanation is given and my symoathy to the dealing agent as they need to overcome tsunami of complaints from the crowd. *claws face* 

But still, there is no confirmed answer until it passed 4 o'clock. 

Shit. We were all trapped in the waiting area, some were allowed to leave the waiting area in groups for less than 3 hours but we chose to stay because I don't fell well. I was having fever the night before and Panadol really helps to make me feel better for a while. 

 Food and water was given. Mc donald without free flow of coke. Mineral water is given one bottle each. You may choose either mineral water or coke. 

Choice of burger 

NOON: fillet-o-fish, mc chicken

Dinner: fillet-o-fish, mc chicken, Big mac. 

I camho with burger, because I have no appetite on eating burger again. =C four hours before this, I just had Mcd. I finished it still. *claps*  In 5 hours time, I ate 2 set of mc chicken.

人人手一粒包 ，餐餐食汉堡包

Due to not feeling well, my family and I got the earlier flight. Half an hour earlier than the flight the other took. 

Thanks to the dealing agent that notice me not feeling well. 

If the flight wasn't delay, we would arrive at 2pm something. 

Pity both my sisters that applied for half day leave just to fetch us from the airport. Auntie, uncle and blurr me  have them worried about us. They almost arrived airport but got message from us our flight delay. 

This is disappointing but nothing can be done. Elder sister actually suggest to take the other flight from the other airway, but we chose to believe in Tiger airways and not to waste the money. By the time the definite confirmed solution is announced, there is no other cheap flight anymore. 

SILK airways refuse to help Tiger airways to send the tyre and we have to wait for the next flight which is memang scheduled to come Penang to bring the tyre. 

So, we have to wait. 

It's torturing, the disappointment over the fact that we miss a day of family moment because of the flight delay. Could you imagine how depressing it would be if it's a 2 days 1 night family gathering trip?

Luckily it wasn't. It's supposingly to be a 4 days 3 nights and ended up to be 3 days and 3 nights. 

So, I arrived at 11pm, singapore changi airport. 

I tot that's the worst how things would turn out to be, couldn't get more worse than that. 

I WAS WRONG!! 

I have confirmed 4 times with the agent to make sure they did transfer my luggage to the plane. BUT END UP THEY DIDN'T. 

GOSH! 

So, we spent an hour to wait for our luggage. We even made a  report on our lost luggage!! 

How can it happen?! after you double, triple, quadruple confirm.. 

Haih.. 

It made us feel even worse. It's a terrible begining for the trip. 

They did transfer the luggage. to the other plane. ={ 

Tiger, why you treat us like that? 

My family chose Tiger because of his good reputation, affordable air travel without compromising passenger safety, security or punctuality. 

I appreciate and understand your decision on delay the flight due to safety reason. But 8 hours is too much. We hardly have a family gathering with all attendance, to us, these are precious moment and been planned for months. 

We reached hotel at 1230 am 

It's really tiring and pity my eldest sister had been waiting anxiously at the hotel lobby. 

Thanks yinyin. =) and really sorry for all this happen. 

When your Ex didn't send you a birthday wish

UPDATE: 

Happy Birthday or Happy Belated Birthday to you! You were directed here, I guess most probably you are facing what I had gone through! And it's nothing wrong for you to care much about birthday wish from your ex! It doesn't mean anything for not receiving his/her birthday wish, your life is still awesome! Babe, you deserve someone who remembers your birthday! 

Keep calm, and stay Awesome! 

I hope this post would enlighten you. 

Yeah, I tot my Ex would send me a birthday wish. 

Yeah, 2 of them didn't. 

I tweet about it in tweeter.

"Random question, Would you care if your Ex didn't send you a happy birthday wish?" 

Some may ask, ''why would you care, you have Monkey with you now, why would you care about the past? ''

If this question rise in your heart, then you should continue reading. 

So, I asked around. 

Some answers that i got:

1. I don't know, this is my first one. 

*sweet, and this makes me jealous. Girls, you are lucky* 

2. Of coz I care. He is my Ex leh. 

3. No, I won't/ But I would be happy kejap if I got the wish from him. 

So, would you care? 

I do. I care about the fact of Ex forgot my birthday. 

*again, FB plays the role in reminding people who's having birthday and it's really convenient that just a click, then you can make a wish. Most of them is Happy birthday, add a smiley face ^^ or =D or =). 

some even goes shorter, like HB (I wouldn't know that it means happy birthday if it's not my birthday) still thank you for the wish because not everyone would wish people happy birthday even it's just one click, like me =P, does it make those receive my birthday wish feel better? haha. ) *

Why do I care?

I care because Ex not just random people.

even though our relationship doesn't have a happy ending, we didn't get to married each other like what we promised.

When the relationship ends, the only thing you remember is those promise that he made.

It sucks when you actually cried for the promise that didn't turn out to be real. *who didn't, tell me*

Most of the guys will come back and make another promise that they won't break your heart. 

Haha, you think I'm going to believe you? It doesn't work anymore. 

Yeah, we were so in love last time, and even though we broke up but it wasn't like I hate you, you hate me.

Frank moment: I did, but it didn't last long. 

Because how do I hate you if you are the person that I liked before, and it's neither you nor my fault that our relationship tak jadi. 

But in the end you have a special seat in the bottom of my heart. 

For the fact you,

teach me how to take care of people,

how to love people, *eeee, i don't know, this word makes my hair stand*

how much privacy and space to give

the bro-mance (this is taught by Monkey who I am still in love with) 

brings laughter into my life

brings me around

teach me DOTA *and I still don't like it* 

spend money on me *yala, tak kan he didn't spend money in the realationship mah*

teach me to hold my pride

teach me to walk better *Monkey don't even care, so I walk like last time now, he just laugh when he sees me walk. He said, it's ugly and cute and funny. That's love that he gave me* go ahead and puke! 

teach me to be strong when I am sad and also during break up. 

teach me to be firm with what I want

and the list goes on.

So, how can you see Ex as a random person or even worse, stranger? 

I can't agree with those that who block any single way to keep in touch with Ex. 

I believe that Ex shouldn't be treated as a stranger. They knows you better than stranger at least.

And I always wanna be friends with my Ex. 

So, I got depressed when I didn't received birthday wish from my Ex. 

Am I the only one tot that we are still friends? 

And another favourite answer that I got from. 

 if he din,its BETTER! it means he's already moved on, and you should get rid out of his love. move on too, with style. =)

Cool right? But I think she tot I still miss my Ex. lol. 

I had already let go since long time ago. 

If in her words, they didn't send me birthday wish because he moves on. *not because of hatred seed* 

Then, I feel glad. 

To all the Ex. Thanks for being my Ex. 祝你们幸福！  

And to Monkey, I hope you are the Mr. Right!

That's his hand on my shoulder. *shy*

   

UPDATE
So, finally I got the happy belated wish from the Ex. which is like 4 days after my birthday.
Anyway, I got the wishes, and I guess I'm not the only one wanna be friends.
So glad that they are living great now, one has girlfriend already while another looks like has his passion in his current work.

To move out or not

Move out:
pros:

1. No curfew
2. Freedom 
3. NO NEED TO COLLECT MERIT
4. WASHING MACHINE in the house, can use whenever you want and when it's needed. 
5. no need to climb up to 4th floor.
6. less chance of getting bitten by Aedes. 
7. can occupy the whole room
8. no need to move all your stuff from one place to another.. ( I think all college is the same, U will be requested to move your stuff into storeroom 
9. you can cook yourself. No worry of spotcheck
10. NO BOMBA PRACTICE at midnight

Cons:

1. Petrol!! because I wanna stay in Equine park which looks a lot safer compare to old flat and sri serdang
2. spend more time driving. 20 minutes back., 10 minutes plus to my faculty. Tiring during rotation
3. life expense increase.
4. share with roommate. 
5. Forever lonely. because If move out, will stay with seniors who has different schedule with mine
6. It's a condo, so limited carpark
7. Safety issue when walk from carpark outside to the condo. 
8. still! FRIENDS.. I need to talk to prevent sting breath. If i din talk, my breath will be stingy in no minutes CHEH~~ 
9. Not sure with the study environment in the condo. 

Time for maths calculation:
each sem $5600 income from JPA (roughly, because I really don't remember how much I got from JPA)
the rent of room that I found=$140 including water and electricity bill and STREAMYX *oh yeah baby, can't live without online, right?*

petrol $80 per month, due to drive alone. =C *according to senior whose car is fuel saving.
uni fee: 1552-450= $1002

so,
    5600
-  1002
-    840 (140 times 6)
-    400 (i count $100 and for 4 months study)
   3358

not bad ya... pocket money for 6 months..

How about college..
    5600
-  1552 (including rental fee for college)
-    200 (petrol fee including go makan, facial wash)
    3848

rm 500 different..
Deng!

$ 500 to pay all the advantage above.

Worthy it not?

I still can't make a decision. It is also depend on the the college accept my appeal not.

Must be a joke. *slap self, Face it!*

Yeah, I just finish a practical test of Anesthesiology and Surgery. Veterinary surgeon can't be a vet surgeon if couldn't pass this *fei hua* and we have a lot lot lot lot lot test that we need to pass in order to be a vet.

And this is a picture of me wearing scrub suit, be a pretty surgeon *vain me* *act cute while I'm not cute at all*

To take care of the image person behind me, I crop the picture and it is awkward. =D 

It's ok.... who cares.. 

The best thing of wearing this other than academic purpose and fun in learning IS it covers my hair!! which looks really bad now because it is at the length between short and long. arggghhh.. 

I guess I didn't fail the test, but we hardly know until we got the result since I am very sui *translate: bad luck* now. How sui?!

My name was not in the list of people that can stay in college!

Oh yeah, Have I ever mention about my college? I guess I didn't.

It's a college which only need RM400 plus for a sem.
It's known as the best college in UPM.
One house has 4 rooms, 3 toilet, 1 balcony, 1 living room, 1 kitchen. *best right*
Two people share one room and roommate makes a big difference in term of quality of the stay. Housemates as well.
The merit system requires you to collect more than 60 merits then you are only allowed to stay.

So, now you know the basic information about College Seventeen. Would continue to the SUI part.

My name was not in the list of people that can stay in college?! How can it be?!
Yeah, I collected more than 80 merits. and I was told that my college merits is only 51 and others are from university and faculty.


I am gonna attend to the appeal rayuan interview that would be held in next Monday to Wednesday. Wait!!!!

That means it would be held during study week, then, how about my plan?!

Oh God, are you kidding me?!





There must be something we can do for it...... I will figure it out.

Update:
Yes, I'm still staying in college!! I'm always a lucky girl.
=D

How does advertisement disappoint me =(

When we come across advertisements, its always look good especially those from the fast food company. It look BIG, JUICY, CRISPY, HEALTHY *when I said healthy, it just means there is fresh vege in it*, normally with a price that you would feel CHEAP or RIDICULOUSLY CHEAP or WORTHY.

I believe a lot of us have been familiar with this feeling where reality doesn't match with adverstisment, just like reality there are no prince charming, may be there are, but 90% are gay or married and left 10% for those lucky and had done so much great things that God even feel guilty not honor her a prince charming. Anyways, prince charming doesn't exist  mostly food-in-reality doesn't match with the advertisement. 

Surprisingly when I google online "advertisement and reality", then I know, I am not that mean if I wanna blog about this. There is a website, talk about adv vs reality by showing lots of picture taken in reality and advertisement. *But it is an UK website, no malaysia website was found yet (I'm lazy)* Here are the photo I got from it.  

Not really much different. The most important thing is still the taste of it. No doubt, we love it. 

Blah Blah Blah, wander away from the point and now finally get into my story of it. 

KFC, yeah, Kentucky Fried Chicken.
To a poor vet student like me who has a busy uni-life *yeah, I know, you  must be thinking how busy will it be, no worry, will post about my schehdule next time then you will understand why do I say so*, It's a luxury and very happening moment to have dinner in KFC. (woah, seriously?!) It maybe over exagerated, but I am just like other youngster, like eating fastfood. *act young* LOL.

so when I saw this in front of the KFC.

Packed with Cheddar and Monterey Jack cheese, Zinger-filler chunks and drizzled with a pinapple-mango sauce that makes the last bite taste the best. 

yeah, it looks BIG

JUICY, the cheese yes
CRISPY, the chicken yes.
HEALTHY
ans CHEESE~~~
extra point! it's rm 2.60 only. (of cz I'm not going to order combo meal which only added carbonated drink charged RM 1.90.)

As a Kiamsiap auntie, no doubt. I ordered it.

That's when reality strikes me.
it came in a small size.... BIG
it's ok, we don't judge the book by its cover. so, I open it..
which make me even more disappointed.

 Did you notice it's just about the size of the tissue paper?! If not, see again. but KFC is always very generous in giving tissue. So, please return or take back the extra, don't waste it. Love the earth, save paper, save trees.  *act environmental friendly* *you don't know me enough* =P

 Closer view of it. It looks HEALTHY (there is vege and no meat at the first glance, lol) and Not-so-Healthy. I don't remember I saw the orange,whitish strand like substance?! that shown in the advertisement, it was supposed to be with vegetables, chicken crispy chicken, and CHEESE.. WHERE DID THE CHEESE GO??! now my blog website name is perfectly match the photo wtf.  Oh, I just realise, could it be that the orange whitish strands are actually the cheese? *taste bud failed to determine*

Yeah, see the difference?! =( 

P.s it's my hand holding it, dun add marks for that. lol. 

How does it taste?!
my fault. I didn't notice that the sauce is pineapple mango, so i didn't expect it to be SOUR.  I was too excited when I saw the combination of cheese and crispy then I forgot the sauce. So I think the caption of the advertisement does match with it! pinapple-mango sauce that makes the last bite taste the best, which the last bite doesn't have any sauce on it. =D 

I manage the finish everything except the wrapping roti with sauce on it. sorry...


I personally think KFC has the biggest gap between advertisement and reality among the fast food restaurant. I had tried few times the newly promoted meal, end up with disappointment.


But, the fried chicken is still at the finger's licking good level since I was a kid. So, next time, I will order snack plate no matter how delicious the advertisement of new food looks.

FML: Male like that sucks!

Have you ever been in this feeling?

Guy friend "or should I said Male friend because they are more like a jantan to me* who has/ hasn't woo you before suddenly pop out the chat box and start with the conversation with
"How are you?"
"i'm good, u? so far still ok?"
"ok ya. not bad. where are you, still in kl?"
"ya, to be more precise, it's at XXXX"
"oic, r u single?"

And there wouldn't be more conversation if they didn't get the answer they want. "I'm single"
because I'm so angry about it, and so sick with it. here is the post about the it.

P.s: For those that don't read Bahasa Melayu, Jantan is a word used for male animal

It's so cute~~ 

What's wrong with you?! In your life, we couldn't be even friends if I am not single?  The most important thing that happen in my life that you care about is my relationship status?!

The relationship status is so important?! That's not even a thing if you wanna be friend, if you wanna know more about me just like what you said, you wanna show concern to my life! Fuck off! Guys like this is super lame.

At this moment I hope that i can be like one of my gay friend that could so easily bring them away from the topic.
*as you know, GAY is so prominent and popular in the trend and they are so well-prepared/well-trained/oh-I-can't find-a-proper-word-HELP-ME that they are so good in answering question like that and handle the JANTAN. Actually from the fact of how many and frequent I bump into gay, I would seriously tell myself *and I did tell myself for a few times of that* that I shouldn't interpret any flirthy/over-friendly/ conversation or act as one of the sign of having feeling towards you.* *He didn't like me, He must be/could be a gay!!*



I'm so sorry for writing this out, but this make me feel better. To whom may concern, to whom that shall not be named, explanation would really make me feel better. Should start reviewing on myself, why would I attract this kind of friends (in Secret, it said, your mindset would attract the person with relatively same mindset. happy person attract happy thing, angry person attract angry incidence?! OMG, I AM ANGRY BIRD?! Maybe?! lol.

There must be something wrong in me that would attract this kind of guys rather than guys that talk heart to heart. *OMG, DO they exist?* *I believe so!*

Yeah, recall back and I do have some guys friend that aint like that. SO, not too bad ya. I love you people! For beind friends, real friends with me even though I don't watch football, I make stupid jokes, i make stupid face, arrogant jaskass-I-am, not having the same reproductive organ with you.
You make the world so beautiful and nice! * exaggerated script*



whooooah! Feel better.  It would be so nice if  I can know more friends minus the JANTAN-SUCKS.

NOTES for myself, Chia Lin, You know life is precious, every minute counts, and do not waste time on them but do not get angry with them. They may be busy so they didn't reply you. It's just co-incidence. Next time when you meet them/saw them, remember to tease them about the importance of relationship status. Don't make it such a big deal. There is no cat don't eat fish, except Smokey who already move to heaven and stay happily.

So move on, Chia Lin. -^v^-