Fat die week.

One week at home is the most blessing week. Apply to all vet students.

Home, best destress therapy and best put-on-weight therapy.

Blessed, with love.. and FOOD!!

Papa Ong bought starbucks ice cream. Papa actually loves ice cream but too bad, since he is now more health concern, he stops eating ice cream, but obviously he didn't stop buying ice cream. He always buys food that he doesn't eat for ONE reason,

JIA LING JIA YEW can eat mah...

He always says that. Hahaha.

Basically he means all his daughters, but then since yewyew and me are the youngest, so he always use our name instead.

He tried it out first, then he claimed it to be too sweet to be fond of his. Uncle is scared of diabetics mellitus .

My mum? Diet is her whole life career. So, automatically she cut off ice cream that obviously makes everyone fat! Even fourfeetnine also don't let Tim eats ice cream... emmm.. not everytimes, but sometime.


But my mum and dad had one scoop Baskin Robbin each when our Dato Lee win Olympic and BR gave out free ice cream. Typical-auntie-uncle. That's why I'm so aunty hahaha.


Not bad, starbucks icecream, creamy just like other high class ice cream. Prefer coffee over frappucino.

Like the coffee taste with caffeine. I have been not drinking coffee, keep both my hands and mind from coffee because my heart beats super fast like it almost beats out from my rib cage and I feel nervous after drinking coffee. So, I cut coffee off my life. To avoid palpitation and kancheong-ness.

Last time I used to drink coffee.. Like EVERYDAY MORNING. I was born in a family make KOPI for a living. So, everyday, I wake up from heavy but nice kopi smell. Every breath I take has KOPI aroma in it. Sometime light, sometime heavy. And Grandma always makes us Kopi. Bread dipped with Kopi, that's our breakfast. So miss it.

Then I moved out from the Kopi factory, we call it KOPIKA. It's a place makes Kopi, *it's still working*, and also my home during childhood. Then I stopped drinking Kopi. Because no one made for me hahahaha.. 
After years of not drinking, eventually I can't drink anymore. My heart is so sensitive to caffeine now instead of LOVE hahahaha.

The caffeine level may not be very high in ice cream, no palpitation after eating, but compare to coffee flavour from other brand, it's so much better and rich with real coffee taste. *Of cz la, starbucks mah~* I like. Creamy cold refreshing!

Frappucino is too sweet and I guess that's the only comment I can give. hahaha. Maybe comment again after second taste.

If you wanna buy starbucks ice cream, take coffee.
Hope you like it.

Go Wild.. *Roar*

Zoologico recently had organised few WILD events, all are related to wild life which I think all of them are very interesting. Like like! One of the event they organized is few competition

In case you are new, I'm a vet student study at Faculty of Veterinary Medicine, UPM. And in this coolest faculty has 2 very cool clubs which are Zoologico, in charge of activities related to wildlife and Verternak, a club more to small animals.

This year, Zoologico is more interesting and change a lot. They organised a lot of activities and they have this Zoologico week which they invite WILDLIFE PEOPLE come and give a talk, expose us more about wildlife. Elephants, exotic birds, pheasants, tigers, reptiles (snakes, croc). Cool right? Last time I joined Reptile workshops, and it was kinda fun to restraint a snake. *or should I say HOLD? People pass it to me, so, I just hold it from him/her)

So this time, I joined few competition to show them the old ginger is still spicy, hahaha.

Picture says thousand words. So here it is.

 Please tell me you notice the words : Start making a differenece.
The photo above I used it to join Poster competition.

And by delete all the wordings, I used the same picture to join photography contest. hahaha. Lazy woman I am.


Okay. Another contest. Tshirt design!
For a girl that has high sense towards fashion *shameless*, you'll know for sure I will win the contest! OOOOSh!

Yes, I won. hahaha

Ok, If you have eagle eyes, you'll notice there are 2 names down there, the bottom right.
Yes, 2 people in 1 group.

Sandy design the T-shirt and I only need to do colouring. hahahha..

Sandy is so creative! It's a graph with X-axis as Type of animals and Y-axis as number of animals.
She even draw dinosaur, so funny. At first, she wanna draw Homo sapiens in the graph as the most overpopulation species. hahaha. She holds the idea back because it is too funny. Make it looks less inspiring. haha

Study week?!

So sorry for the late update, had few busy weeks that I have no time to update my blog. *excuse hahaha*

I'm back to Penang. Not yet sembreak. It's study week. No way I'm gonna spend a week time in college. I still remember when I was younger *not that I'm not young now hahaha* I refused to go back during study week because I think I won't be studying at home. Too much distraction. Some more after 2 weeks time, when I finish finals, I would be back for like one month at least, so why would I rush back to hometown if in that case. Does it make sense? Waste money, time and energy..

But when I got older * not that I'm old now, emmmm, maybe a bit old, haha* , I see it was a wrong idea and decision if I stay in college during study week. Why? Because...

1. Mummy and daddy are the best destress people to hang together with. Did i tell you my mum is a good caunsellor? 
2. My tweety bird grandma lookalike popo!! The sweetest grandma ever. She hardly recognize us, but our names (my siblings and i) are always at the tip of her tongue. 
3. Home is a place with home cooked food. 
4. No food tastier than home town delicious famous food. It's a true story. No matter how bad your hometown food is, you will have at least one day you miss nothing but certain food from hometown. 
5. Ok, I admit Monkey is another reason I'm homed right now. Life without love is torturing. Hahaha. Bit exagerating, but kinda true. 
6. Queen or princess when I'm home. My parents love me too much. 
7. I can study at home!!!! Better than study in college! Serious shit.
8. Better bed at home. 

A picture of me and Monkey act serious shit face.

I'm homed. Finally.

Week of kemalangan

After a week of work-your-ass-off-week, here comes the week of kemalangan.

Yes, it's a week of kemalangan. Nothing good happen in this week. *got la, junior organize winter festival, ate tasty tang yuan, thank you. surgery workshop, therio result still not bad, gossip with seniors, or maybe because of gossip, now all the bad thing come back to me.. KARMA sucks. hahahaha*

But it is really like nothing good happen,
siasui in front of my crush,
dog died,
got period stain bit on my pants wtf, *u don't need to know this*
shitty presentation that I have my tongue tied don't know how to explain. oh fuck!


The most most most big kemalangan is!!!!

I GADUH with one of my bestfriends in DVM. Holy shit right?!



Maybe PMS plus frustration plus tiring plus emotional unstable

All this add up my negative energy!
I have been so tired for these few days.

Stress for a lot of things and I damn need a break. How can vet students survive all these?
Stress for assignment and report, rotation, never ending exams and quiz.

And now what's more?! Peer pressure?
Why we fight at this fucking time. Yes la, I'm the one started this argument. So, no one to blame but me.


Be honest, today I hardly pay attention during lecture.
Can I have a break?
I need a break!

6 days more! then I have a long break!
It's a study week but I'm really need to recharge myself.
What's wrong with me?

God, please show me some love.
Brighten my day with great things.

Imperfect? Perfect idiot?!

I'm not perfect. I made stupid mistake..


But I would learn from the mistake I did.
Laugh off the mistake but it is in my heart. I remember it forever!

For the stupid mistake I did and the previous experience that would only happened once in my whole life.

a week called work your ass off week

Yes! As a vet student in UPM , we are lucky enough that we have a small animal hospital where we have our small animal rotation. A stressful place " not really stressful la, just want to freak juniors reading this out hahaha" where we practice, learn, got scolded if did some stupid things of course. Actually vet officer quite pity in a way that they have to face a batch of students who atonitially know nothing at all, they have to brief them and teach them. Every year repeat the cycle as the old and finally familiar themselves with the routine will be graduated and new batch come in with zero knowledge. They have to start teaching all over again.

This week is my icu week, which means intensive care unit. Basically we will the student anaesthetist fir the surgery held on thursday also, take care of the patient that need intensive care/emergency. Moreover, we will be on call for any emergency case throughout the week. Yup! Sounds pro right. Good in a way that you can learn more and learn to be fast. At first I thought only wildlife vet need to be fast, who knows, small animal as well. Actually any matter that is life matter need you to work fast.

Two days before is Thursday. End up have my lunch and dinner at 1030 pm fml. Had gastritis but thanks to Wawa who gave me her pack of biscuit right after I came out from operation theatre room. So nice! Thank you Wawa, really appreciate it so much.

Can't Take My Eyes Off You

A song to bury the feeling of me to the person I admire so much that even Monkey felt threaten hahahaha.

Lyrics: 
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

I wish you found your mate. A handsome, clever, lovely guy.  

Say Hello to God

This decision is hard to make but I think it's the best for her.

She will not be forgotten.
Forever, she lives in my memory and she shall be immortal now without pain or suffering.

How lucky she is to have owners that are so caring towards her. Can see how much love they have to her in their eyes.
I'm glad that she is the patient that under me during my rotation, to know her and be familiar with her, in these 6 days, I feed her, clean up her mess, play with her, walk her, talk to her, geram her for not eating.
But, I'm glad I was with her until the very end.

I will not forget about her. She has very nice and smooth hair coat. Nice temperament. Everything about her is so nice except that she eats anything and everything she sees. Funny thing is, the owner said exactly the same thing about her. =D


To this little girl, when you get to heaven, please don't eat things other than food.
Hope that you will meet my Happy, Amy and Lucky there.


And to cheer myself up and remind myself not to forget to smile after all this happened.

Eyes were bit swollen after so much of tear production and rubbing on eyes.

Smile no matter what. Face your fear and overcome it. Be #Optimistic and #cheerful
Keep this in mind.
Move forward meanwhile not forgetting the past.
I'm no one without the past.

A dream with cruel facts to deal with #1

If you are new here, I'm studying veterinary medicine. And my dream is to become a pretty vet, YES, must be a pretty vet *shallow* with my own veterinary clinic (maybe just 打工la), my son or daughter (or maybe adopted child in case I'm infertile or end up in a lovely lesbian relationship hahaha) will be at the cashier area together with our pet, a Pug maybe, or help me to restrain dogs and cats. They always say it's good to dream big hahaha. It's a dream.

But you know, after you enter veterinary medicine course, you know, things ain't going to be so perfect.

You will have a lot of clients take everything for granted, blame on vet even though there is nothing wrong that the vet has done, ask for and think that ONE injection ONLY already can treat all kind of disease and blah blah blah. But there are owners that really appreciate vet's hard work. Thank you - To all nice owners with gratitude.

But today I'm not going to talk about owners.

There are moments that I really think I should not have chosen Veterinary Medicine. I love animals, I have 3 dogs living happily in my childhood memory. Maybe that's the reason, I'm so easy to get attached to animals emotionally. I am happy when I see there is improvement in patients.

Vet students are funny in a way that, they may feel happy if the cats or dogs finally defecate after being constipated for a while, or from pasty feces become solid, urinate clear yellowish urine, all sort of things that you may think disgusting, vet students are happy with it.

The biggest weakness in me is I get emotional-attached to patient easily.
I can't stand when I know the prognosis is not going to be good or see any sign of deteriorating. I just can't.
Tears easily rolled down from my eyes. and I hate to face this kind of situation and feeling which I can't do anything to help and with tears and mucus running down on my face. I guess I must have looked ugly.

I understand that we are not God. But God, please. Ease my pain and give me the strength to face this fact for me to help these poor things to have some quality remaining time. For me to be able to smile when see them in their eyes.

This is one of the moment I think I'm not suitable to be a vet.
It's not good to be too attached with patients.
It's not good to cry in front of owners/together with the owners/just me crying wtf.
I have to be professional which I capable of controlling my emotion and feeling not to let sadness overwhelmed my heart and mind that affect my critical thinking and decision making.
I should be the one console them, not crying together or worst, they console me.


Some said eventually I will get immune to it when I had already face with too much of that scene.

Sometime when I recall this, I would ask myself, "Is it a good thing or bad? "
I don't know.

But, I hope my dream comes true.
Because that's what I have been dreaming for years.

-The wish shall come true-

And yeah. Thank you the VO on duty that console me. I appreciate that, Such an angel she is.

The end of the world?

I almost forgot this, rumours saying 21st Dec is going to be the end of the world. 

That day I was talking with Monkey ever the phone, as usual.

He remind me about this and used this as a reason/sounds more to excuse to me, asking me to skip class and  get my ass back to Penang because 

HE KNOWS 

I DON'T WANNA BE AT UPM if it's going to be the end of the world. 

Monkey: You should come back at 19th Dec. 

Me: Why? 

Monkey: 21st Dec is going to be the end of the world and I have planned everything for you. By 20th you should already be here, but then it may got traffic jammed and high chances you can't get back to me if you buy a bus ticket which depart at 20th. So, YOU SHOULD COME BACK AT 19th, which is so much better option because by right you should be able to by my side at 20th then we shall wait for death together. Maybe before that we can go eat something nice first. You know, just like what we do as usual. 

Me: but I have class until 21st Dec wor. 

Monkey: YOU BETTER DON'T REGRET IF IT IS THE END OF THE WORLD!  

hahaha. 

I know I will. 

and everyone will do. or maybe me only. Because everyone will be running for their lives but I guess not me, at least. I'm not a good runner. So, I better lay on bed, eat some sleeping pill and I shall wait for angels to pick me up. or maybe evil will do. T_________T

Good thing is now I have 1 test at 22nd Dec which is Saturday. 

So I think there won't be the end of the world because I have a text the day after that 

or until the end of the world, I still have to face NEVERENDINGEXAMS. 

or only vet students survive becuase they still have test the day after the end of the world. 

Stupidity

If there is an award for stupidity, I would be not just "honour" to accept this award!

I was so stupid today, I guess no one is more stupid then what I just did. 

My watch has been out for battery for sometimes, *If you saw me still wearing a white watch, actually the watch is not working. hahaha. I just used to wearing a watch, so I put it on without realise the fact that it's broke and it needs a battery and it doesn't help my miserable life at all by having it on my wrist. I'm just too used to it.* 

So, today around 2 15pm, I finally gam buan move my ass out of my room to sri serdang the ONLY watch shop that I know to change battery. 

230pm. When I almost reach there, the picture of my watch laying on my tidy table ok, it's not tidy at all, on my can't be more messy table flashed across my mind. I forgot to bring my watch! STUPID#1

Oh shit! But I almost there! In a dilemma wanna make a Uturn or check whether the shop is open not. I made up my mind, reached there and asked can I just buy a battery back and fix it myself, would it be difficult. Of course not. I know the answer but I still ask. Sometime I can be really stupid in handling small tinny chores in my life. So, that's STUPID#2 

The shop closed at 3. Now I have 30 minutes to get back to college and take my watch and rush back to the shop. 

I need the watch because of surgery rotation, HOW CAN I COUNT RESPIRATORY RATE, HEART RATE WITHOUT A WATCH? So, it's kinda emergency indeed. And I should have fix it earlier when I have plenty of time. STUPID#3 

235pm. On the way rushing back to college. Guess what! I chosed a route that is super jammed in this week because of MAHA!! *If you are staying around serdang, putrajaya, you should know what is MAHA, It's a Malaysia leading agricultural show with a lot, A LOT of free food testing, cheap stuff.*  I choose the one pass by MARDI. haih. STUPID #4 

End up jammed there for 15 minutes. 

3pm  Finally reach college! take my watch and rush back to the shop. 

310pm  Reach the shop and the man left the shop. Good. 

But, I'm still a lucky girl. Someone in the shop *which I guess is the owner of the shoplot, the watch shop just occupies a small part of it.* gave me his handphone number and I managed to get him back and fix it. 

Pheww.. spent RM10 for a battery which I can actually buy a new cheap watch, and RM5 for the fuel ?? Worth? definitely not. T__________T Y I so stupid today. 

4 Stupid acts in one day and 1 lucky moment.